A Moment Changed

A Moment Changed

Its been over a year since that day Febuary 04, 2008. It was a day I never believed would come.
It did though. I look back on the last year and find myself never to be healed. It is something that I am learning to live with and learning how to control my pain. It so deeply painful it far surpasses the center of the heart that goes down deep to thy very soul. My soul within me is heavy laden. How I continue every day is not my own strength. My strength only comes from the grace of God. It is him who gave me the holy spirit through Jesus Christ whom saved me from death.   Thank you Jesus for saving me, for carrying me through the mire Amen.
It all started when I met an infant whom was created in my womb for nine months. A beautiful child whom I named Gabriel. I remember when I first saw him. He looked like a baby eagle with his little wrinkly body and his mouth chirping when a mother eagle brings back her prey of worms and her babies are chirping with their mouths open wide. This child that was given to me from God was truly a blessing. We never knew what the future would hold for us. All I knew was that I loved him instantly. A bond between us was no ordinary bond between mother and child. It was a bond that only God himself could give a mother and child. I never would understand it until that day came.
As Gabriel started growing he was really irresistible. He was far beyond beautiful. When I took him places I never got so many compliments of a child before from me having three children.

Gabriel being my oldest of three children.   He always stood out like a diamond in the ruff. He was always so happy and a great jokester. When he was in the second grade he had got a reward for being the jokester in class. I believe he got that from his mama. He was very outgoing in his younger years, very sociable, he always knew how to turn that frown upside down. He had such a full and blessed heart that can touch anyone who met him.
I remember it was the year 1999 we used...