Oh God!

Oh God!

DANIELLE: O Heavenly Father, I ask for your guidance today, but I’m unsure if you have any guidance to give.
Oh Lord, I’m unsure if you’ve ever even given guidance, for I don’t know if you’re really there.

The Bible tells me these amazing stories that I’ve heard over and over throughout my life, but the work I do in school contradicts so much of what you teach me, that I don’t know what to believe anymore.
Do I ignore everything those around me say, and suffer through this life in hopes of something greater? Or should I fulfill what my gut tells me, and become a sceptic of your word?
What if there is nothing more, and all I waste my life trying to abide by your wishes, when you have none at all?
I’ve been told your are all powerful, and yet you give us a free will? You allow us to kill in debate over what you may or may not have said! If you’re so powerful, why don’t you stop it? Why don’t you call out, and tell us what you said, and what you meant, instead of allowing for all this bloodshed!?
Why would you give me food, and not those in the third world? Why am I more deserving? I don’t love you any more, and I don’t sin any less… and yet somehow there are people--good people--   dying of hunger!
Why do I deserve a home, when others don’t?
Is it all part of your master plan, God!? Am I to just sit back and watch the world around me decay? Tell myself that they will receive their reward in heaven?
Some would call that denial! Others might call it faith.
I think I’m losing my faith…
Lord help me! Guide me! Show me the light, God, I want to know! Please?!!!
Are you there?

(DANIELLE pauses and waits in anticipation for God to respond)

Please…
I’m afraid, God, please.
I’m afraid of what you do to me, and I’m afraid of what you’ll do to me if I reject you.
I don’t know, I don’t know, I don’t know
I don’t know!
…I don’t know…

(DANIELLE pauses again, looking for what to say)

Thank...