Submitted by thinredline78 on 11/22/2008 12:33 PM Flag This Paper
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Overcoming Your Environment
I believe experiences makes us who we are, not nature.
It's a basic natural instinct, necessary for us to survive. Animal gets bitten by poisonous snake, animal nearly dies, but pulls through. Animal learns not to get bitten by snake again!
If only it were that simple when it comes to humans! I, like everyone, have made so many mistakes in my life, but I don't regret any of them. I've made so many bad choices, but I can see now that, although they were bad choices, I learned lessons from them I needed to learn, and I'm less likely to make the same mistake again, and if I do make the same mistake, I will recover much more quickly from it. I'm a believer in learning the hard way. And I've had ample opportunity to do that.
I've not had an easy life, and many of the wrong choices I've made are because of that. Growing up in a very dysfunctional family, I was often tormented and ridiculed by my family members for being the only mixed-race child in my family. I endured countless racist remarks about my 'bad other half'. I was told I was worthless, that I would never amount to anything in this life. You name it I had it said or did to me as a child. My mother, who had also suffered abuse (both mentally and physically) from the hands of her parents, wasn't there for me the way a mother should be. She had me at a very young age, so we were more like sisters than mother and daughter. I can still clearly remember the feeling of being pushed aside like I meant nothing whenever a new boyfriend arrived on the scene.
I had a lonely childhood, no brothers or sisters, while I was growing up. I was a shy child, keeping to myself, afraid to let anyone in for fear of rejection and abandonment. The few friends I did have growing up quickly grew tired of my weird family and moved on. I was both expecting it and horrified when that happened. The expectation was largely due in part to the fact that in the back of my head I was always telling...